Christmas is upon us, and I have to say I lust after this season. I love this season.... Lust and love are not always related to sex. Even envy is not always a bad thing, it is only when envy becomes jealousy, because envy can be a driving factor. If we envy others who have nice things, then we might work harder to get them for ourselves, but if we are jealous, we might be a lower person, doing things that make regret or diminish us.
So I let love flow as much as I can, and there is so much still there that I don't have but I know I need......
I am happy for the most part, but until I can let love and lust flow freely and get fulfilled, then I will not be really myself, and not really happy.
Some things need to run wide open....
But one day I feel as if everything I want will eventually come.
Like waiting for Christmas, it does eventually come.....